no one else can smile her smile

i had a good day, despite my fears of driving to Wanaque by myself and seeing pippy sick. The nurses have been telling me she is feeling better, but i convinced myself that they were lying to me because they are scared of me. i have been really mean, so i dont blame them really. when i’m concerned about the pip, i really just can’t keep my emotions together.

So, when i got there, pippy smiled a massive smile to welcome me. then we played and played. Piper Jane was herself. her spunky, silly, smiley, hyper-piper and throat grabbing self. i could do without the throat grabbing, but a minor con to so many pros. plus my throat is so grabbable.

her feeding tube disconnected and leaked all over my jeans so i went to the bathroom to clean myself off. i kind of felt like i shouldn’t have left her like this, but it was so cute to look from the bathroom and see her standing there all alone and curious.

you can tell she is wondering if she is going to get in trouble for being alone. yeah right….pip in trouble.

when my parents were in town, birdie had a complete heyday with my dad’s glasses, so i decided i’d wear some. the first thing she did was pull them off and then poke me in the eye immediately with no warning. and then she laughed at herself.

i might frame this one of the big chucks/little chucks. it was an accident that we matched, i was all “pippy, you and mama match!” and she was like ” squeak squeak”. and then she threw her Dora on the floor. She always does that.


more things that happened today:
~her roommate, rubi, was having a moment with the nurses and they wanted privacy so they pulled the curtain around. the corner was right where we were sitting. Piper Jane peeked around the curtain and watched the whole thing. i pulled her back once, but when she went back and the nurses were laughing so hard, i thought it was probably harmless. she is a curious little monkey frog.
~i was singing pipsey “drive, drive, drive that firetruck” and i was poking her nose on the “ding ding ding” part and when i stopped, she grabbed my finger and started poking her nose with it. she pays attention! ha
~she was happy enough to clap and smile. since i’ve taught her to clap, i have figured out that she has to be in a really good mood to do it. I was pretty much sure that “a really good mood” would never happen again, and i was so scared. it feels so good to be wrong.

i’m sorry for being so down about the move. and i’m sorry to my friends who had to hear my sobs and complaints this week. there are at least 5 of yas.



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8 Responses to “no one else can smile her smile”


  • Comment from Turbo

    So cute, Reag.

  • Comment from Stephanie

    I'm so glad that she was so happy for you today and I really think that you need to teach me all your cute kid songs.

  • Comment from April

    I doubt you need to apologize to even one of your friends.. If you keeps sobs inside, they make you drown. Not good.
    I would love to have you call and tell me what was going on! It would be a nice break from stphanie beeping in and filling me in on her every last move for the day. Believe me, nobody really wants to know all that. But somehow, I still love it.

    Glad things are getting better!

  • Comment from Kristen

    EEEK!!! I LOVE the pictures with the shoes! Needs to be framed for sure.

  • Comment from ellen

    I love your stories about Piper.

  • Comment from k e n d r a

    1st- all i can hear in my head is piper's friend "don't drop dora" and it is cracking me up.
    2nd- glasses suit you and look rad
    3rd- chucks pic is completely adorable, love the polaroid filter

  • Comment from MelanieBaker

    Yay!! I'm so glad she is feeling better. She is such a big girl, and we are so proud of her. Really cute pics!

  • Comment from Rae

    This is one of my favorite posts I've ever read on your blog. Look how big and grown up she looks in that first photo!