All I have to say right now is that I miss you.
I love this blog. I’ve thought about ending it a few times because of the shambles my life is in, but I literally want to throw up at that thought. I can’t do it.
Sidenote: I still don’t check the traffic, I’ve never really been one for that, but in case there was any confusion..I’m so glad you are here. I’m so glad you read. I’m so glad to get emails from you and comments from you and I’m just glad you want to join in on the action. I still feel bad about hollerin’ at the mean yous a while back, but I also still feel like it was the right thing for me to do at the time. You are all welcome to be here except for the ones of you who are jerks.
Anyway, yes I miss you so much.
And I want to write. I have so many hilarious stories that I wish I could share. You wouldn’t believe some of the trouble that has just fallen straight from hell directly into my lap sent by some kind of angry devil demon. Most of it is not funny, some of it is actually kind of scary, but there’s enough that some can’t be dealt with in any other way besides laughter. None of this can be written about publicly unfortunately. Y’all, my life is like a lifetime movie right now. One that is equal parts comedy and drama. I mean, when I say this stuff out loud to friends and family I can’t believe I’m talking about my own life. It’s funny and so so not funny at the same time. You get the picture.
But also I’m doing so good. I’m spending really really really great times with Piperjane. Like, our relationship is completely different these days. When I hang out with her I can’t believe I stayed in a situation that got in the way of our relationship for so long. I realized I’ve spent her whole life trying my hardest to keep a sinking ship afloat and as hard as that is to admit, I’m just happy to be starting fresh..and for the chance to make it up to her. I can now devote so much more time and love and energy to that pip and more to myself and my family/friendships all at the same time.
Honestly it’s the best thing that has ever happened to me. I mean it.